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So nothing really worth reading going on in my life. Intersting weekend ahead. Rich is off, he wants to go to the Celebration Garage sale, well I shouldn't say he wants to, he is going and taking his mom. I haven't decided if I'm going. Taking a baby to Orlando to sit in a car and garage sale....hmmm sounds fun. I didn't get to see Richard this morning. He was still at work when I left the house but by the time I dropped off the baby at the sitters he was on his way home. I had a hard time falling asleep last night, it's mardi gras time and for whatever reason the past creeped into my mind and haunted me before I could fall asleep. Once I did though, I slept hard all night untill about 5 am when I heard Richie starting to stir. When I refer to the past and it haunting me, yes I was referring to Richard and the shower incident that occurred on mardi gras night several years ago. I just want to know when these memories will fade more and not haunt me. We have a good marriage, he's faithful to me, treats me good, I know it's in the past, to be exact a few years in the past but yet around this time of year it all comes back to me and feels closer than three years ago. It still hurts....I want that hurt to disappear forever. I know people love going to mardi gras and richard and i have had good times going since this incident happend but yet, I hate when it comes and people start talking about it because all the memories of that year come back. Ok, I'm kicking a dead horse, i'll get off this topic. Actually i'm going to end this blog and get to work so i quit thinking altogether. For the record, I do love my hubby with all my heart and I do forgive him for the past pain, that's not the issue, the issue is with my mind letting crap effect me that shouldn't.